Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Survey thingy

I STOLE THIS FROM JESSICA...............(she told me to!!!)
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Pam
2. Spatula
3. Pamela
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Eaglepam
2. pampam05
3. spatula
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Hair
2. Eyes
3. Feet
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Butt
2. Thighs
3. Paleness
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. Indian
3. Scottish
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Roaches
2. Being in love alone
3. Never finding that "one" to make my life something special
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Contacts
2. Getting on the internet
3. blue jeans
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Green shirt
2. Tommy jeans (brand-spankin new)
3. flip-flops
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. SheDaisy
2. Trapt
3. Pat Green
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. "Come Home Soon" SheDaisy
2. "Don't Wanna Close My Eyes" Aerosmith
3. "Unchained Melody" LeAnn Rimes
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Humor
3. Trust
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. We own 30+ registered Texas Longhorns
2. My favorite color is black
3. I want four children, two boys, two girls
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU(in order):
1. Overall looks
2. Eyes
3. Body/Smile (depending on the guy)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES(also in order):
1. Surfing the web
2. Reading
3. Listening to music
THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. A hott guy to come up t me and kiss me
2. A bed to sleep in cuz my back hurts
3. To got to college for real
CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Film Director
2. Teacher
3. Nurse
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Hawaii
2. Scotland
3. Ireland
THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Jack Anthony
2. Margaret Elizabeth
3. Audrey Grace
(4. Charles Richard)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go skydiving
2. Own a motorcycle
3. Marry the man I love (when I find him or when God reveals him to me if I know him already)THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/BOY:
1. I like guys
2. I like to shop
3. I wear makeup
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Orlando Bloom
2. Chad Michael Murray
3. Elijah Woods
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE STEAL THIS FROM ME:
1. Porkchop
2. Heathykins
3. Mark (a.k.a. -[Medic]-)

Monday, June 27, 2005

Small update

Ok, just a quick post to keep everyone informed, I have orientation tomorrow. Fun fun! Hopefully I will get all of the stuff I need to do taken care of. More when I get home. Love to all!

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Dreams

Ok, FYI for the general populace, I'm seriously going to check into a theater major. No more business. Unless I can't do the theater program and honors at the same time. If I can't, I'll stick with business for now. But I have to adjust my schedule and rearrange a couple of things. No Economics, mainly. As corny as it sounds, I was watching "Cinderella Story" and heard the line, "Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." So I decided to go after my dream. Film director. Sorry to disappoint you Choody Boop, but I'll try not to succumb to Hollyweird society if I make it that far. Love to all. Heathykins, only a month and a little bit left!

Saturday, June 18, 2005

News, Lots and lots of news!

Okay, this is gonna be one heck of a post. First off, scholarship, then Josh, then last night, then today. Are you ready? Are you sure? Ok, let's go.

Scholarship: I've decided that while I was waiting for God to work things out, He did, but I just didn't see it! Duh! Ok, if I would've gotten the scholarship, I would've been limited to a degree in the business field. Now, without the scholarship, I can be anything I want to be! No restrictions, no limitations, no end to the possibilities! I can pursue film, or primary education, or medicine, or chemistry, or ANYTHING I want! It's awesome! My first year is paid, so now all I have to do is explore my options! Easy as pie, sort of, but I'm a little scared. I really don't like to float and leave things undecided, but I'm willing to let God lead, as long as He gives me OBVIOUS answers. Key word. Did you see it? Heh.

Josh: His parents are old family friends and I met him a couple of years ago. His first words to me were, "Great way to break stuff." Nice? Funny, to say the least. He's cute and sweet (which you'll see more of later). He graduated with my cousin and was ranked something like 17 out of 500 or so. So not too dumb, right? Well, he's funny, smart, cute, nice, and wakeboards, which is a doorway in a way since my brother and cousin both do that, but he lives an hour away and will be close to 2 hours away when college starts. So it's a thought. So I reiterate that I'm shallow and very immature since I have about 6 crushes at a time, but anybody can be Prince Charming, right? Lol.

Last night: Uncle Tony, Mom, Derek (my brother), Brandy (his gf), Anthony (my cousin), Lauren (Anthony's gf), Tammy (Uncle Tony's fiancee), and Ashley (Tammy's daughter) went to dinner last night. Uncle Tony paid, despite our protests. Josh showed up right after we ordered, but he had already eaten at Jack-in-the-Box. After supper, we went to Crockett St. to go "clubbin" and I went to my first club ever! And had a great time! I didn't drink and I didn't dance, but I watched all of the people drinking and dancing, and laughed the whole time! I was standing against the wall just watching and Josh walked over to check on me. He said that I didn't look like I was having a good time. And then he offered to make an effort to get Derek and Brandy (who hasn't turned 18 yet, not til Monday) inside so I'd feel more comfortable. I really appreciated his thoughtfulness and willingness to make sure I was happy. I went and stood by him and Anthony and kept watching people, just talking and laughing and making fun of this girl who had toilet paper stuck to her shoe after she came out of the bathroom... No, I'm not kidding. It was classic! TBS funny, lemme tell ya. So we left the strip (Derek, Brandy, and me) at about 11 PM. We got home and took showers. Brandy took hers first, then I got in. When I finally got finished in the bathroom, I walked out and heard voices. Josh's voice. Anthony had come home and Josh decided to spend the night with all of us at Uncle Tony's. They'd left Lauren at Crockett St., but that's a whole 'nother story, which I don't know the entirety of, so you're gonna have to just use some imagination and figure out how she got separated from the group, got lost, and rolled her ankle stepping off a curb badly enough to have to have Anthony leave his house at 2 in the morning and go pick her up off the sidewalk after some kind stranger called him after she fell... Josh ended up going to somebody else's house to a party about 30 minutes after he got there, so I don't know where he ended up sleeping, but he had to work today from 7 to 5, and missed today's events.

Today: Today was the Southeast Texas Wakeboarding competition in Rose City (right beside Beaumont). Derek competed in the amateur division. Anthony was in the intermediate/advanced division. Don't know the results. We left at 5 PM before the awards and live band got started, and before Josh got there, but it was an over-all ok day. I got sunburned, but I'll be aight. Might blister. We'll see. The whole comp ended up getting rained out right after we left, but there was only about half of a division left to run and half of the people were already gone. Dad met us at Uncle Tony's this morning and went out there with us, and he got involved in some strange business. Some guy under the canopy next to us named Bradley (his name was tatted across his back) stole a wakeboard. We all saw him and Dad reported him to the vendors and Don, the guy who owns the lake. So they knew who he was, knew how to contact him, and he'll be punished. They got Dad's name and number in case they needed a testimony or any more help. So that was the excitement of the day, I guess.

Well, I've got that off my chest, so I'll let y'all go! Love and hugs to all! But don't squeeze too tight! I'm a little warm... Heheh.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Scholarship

I didn't get it. I'm upset, and I cried, but I know God will work something out. I just wish He would've worked THAT something out.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Tears and Hope

Hey all. First, I want to share this great story found by Mark (a.k.a. -[Medic]-). I really cried when I read it, but it was definitely worth the read. He was also kind enough to link to me on his blog several times to stories or certain posts. He's a pretty cool guy, so stop by and see him.

For all of you keeping track of my health status, I feel TONS better. My throat is still a tad bit sore, but my back is perfectly aight. This last day of teas and cider will probably cure me once and for all. So thanks for your prayers.

Should hear something about the scholarship today or tomorrow, so if you hear a scream in whatever state you happen to be in, don't worry, it's just me. Hehe. But if I don't get it, you won't hear me cry. But there's quite a bit riding on this scholarship. Like a car, a computer, and of course, my college education. Oh, I'll go, but it'll be a little bit harder to procure funding. I'll let you know as soon as I find out. Love to all!

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Disease

I'm sick. Ill. In severe pain. Because, not only do I have some bug that affects my tonsils and ears, but I also strained muscles in my back. From picking up my little ones from VBS, I would imagine. Not something that usually happens. I'm a very sturdy girl, so it's not like I can't handle it, but I think I was twisted wrong or bent too far over a time or two and I'm feeling the effects of it now. It was far worse yesterday. Heat helps bunches. But my throat hurts when I swallow. That's why I'm on the computer when I'm supposed to be at church. Go figure. Should know something about the interview in the next couple of days. Had a fever yesterday, 100.9 degrees at it's highest. Stayed in bed all afternoon, then felt better, so I got up. When I woke up this morning I was back to square 3, as opposed to square 6 at the end of yesterday. But I'm going back to bed now. Later.

>>> Update: Ok, today I'm a lot better in that my back isn't bothering me much, just a little stiff, but that should stretch out by about noon. My throat, unfortunately, is still sore, and my ears are still floating, so I'm taking it easy for the time being. 'Bout to go pop some pills and take a shower, then it's back to drinking tea and gargling with salt water (Mom's idea, haven't tried it yet). Just lettin' y'all know!

Friday, June 10, 2005

Interview...

Hey all. Y'all remember the interview I mentioned earlier? Well, it was yesterday. I was relaxed, cool, and confident. Well, mostly. I got nervous the night before but calmed back down after I talked to a couple of counselors about it, then I got nervous right when I went in the room. But after I started talking I calmed back down. The counselor I went up there with went in and "pitched" us to the committee after our interviews (there were three of us). He said that they were "awed" by me, that I was poised, mature, and very impressive. My rank and involvement and scholarships from High School got me extra gold stars. So things look fair. I won't know anything for sure until after Monday when they mail the results, but I'm hopeful, and we're still praying. And I got into the Honors dorm!!! That's kind of hard to do if you don't apply super early, but I got in. I don't know my room number yet, or who my roommate is, but that's ok. God will handle that, too. So, just wanted to keep everybody posted. Thanks for your prayers and thoughts! Love to all!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Cheers!

I thought this was good stuff. Got in an email this morning.

A mother writes:

My son serves in the military. He is still stateside right now. He called me yesterday to let me know how warm and welcoming people were to him, and his troops, everywhere he goes, telling me how people shake their hands, and thank them for being willing to serve, and fight, for not only our own freedoms but so that others may have them also.

But he also told me about an incident in the grocery store he stopped at yesterday, on his way home from the base. He said that ahead of several people in front of him stood a woman dressed in a burkha.

He said when she got to the cashier she loudly remarked about the U.S. flag lapel pin the cashier wore on her smock.

The cashier reached up and touched the pin, and said proudly, "Yes, I always wear it and I probably always will."

The woman in the burkha then asked the cashier when she was going to stop bombing her countrymen, explaining that she was Iraqi.

A gentleman standing behind my son stepped forward, putting his arm around my son's shoulders, and nodding towards my son, said in a calm and gentle voice to the Iraqi woman:

"Lady, hundreds of thousands of men and women like this young man have fought and died so that YOU could stand here, in MY country and accuse a check-out cashier of bombing YOUR countrymen. It is my belief that had you been this outspoken in YOUR own country, we wouldn't need to be there today. But, hey, if you have now learned how to speak out so loudly and clearly, I'll gladly buy you a ticket and pay your way back to Iraq so you can straighten out the mess in YOUR country that you are obviously here in MY country to avoid."

Everyone within hearing distance cheered!

Monday, June 06, 2005

Tattoo

Oh, a special aside for Chad and Heathykins (yes, it WILL stick!). If you want a tattoo, take a look at this one. Pretty sweet, huh? Yeah... right.

Monday

Watched "The Last Samurai" last night. Sad. Good, but sad. Got an email from Ryan. Finally. Today's' the first day of VBS! I'm so excited!!! Oh, and Heathykins, I didn't miss the "Matrix" reference, but I didn't actually catch it until I saw the movie a couple of days later and recognized a line as one of your comments. :P I never can remember the really cool lines! And you get to jump out of planes FOR A LIVING!!! *sulks in corner like a two-year-old, then suddenly turns around, and, with a huge sheepishly cheesey grin, goes skipping off, singing the Numa Numa song*

Friday, June 03, 2005

Big Red Button

Ok, this was SOO FUNNY! We laughed and laughed and laughed... and we blew up the world... Mwa hahahahaha... Ok, you try! You can do it! Come on, PRESS THE BUTTON! See you on the other side...

Hmm, Random Pam

Hey all! Got my hair cut today! Yay! And my eyebrows waxed. Yeah, a little painful, but it's ok. It was worth it. My eyebrows look good and my hair is SOO CUTE! Just ask Porkchop! Hehe. We figured out how to do links today. Ate lunch at McDonald's. Had chicken nuggets. Mmmm mmmm, good. Ba dat bat ba baaa, I'm lovin' it. Heh, that took a while. Aight, well, nothing much else is going on... except that Dad put my internet time limit back on. He's a pain, but he'll take it off if I take care of all of my chores. Yeah, sure, no problem. As if I don't already! But I'm okay, I promise. Porkchop is sitting beside me talking about her crazy life and goofy family while we "watch" her little cousin. Who's dad is HOTT but is like 33. And looks like Colin Farrell. But moving on... I seriously saw the Orlando Bloom similarities in Justin the other day. It's all in God's hands now. The girls at the office said my hair was "sexy" and looked really grown up. Yay! Wow, this post is really random. Sorry. But it's going up anyway! Mwa hahahaha... Maw Hawaii... (Courtesy of the spell checker). Yeah... Toodles.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Dear Josh: Letter to a Soldier

A poem by Pam, the Spatula

Ok, this one started out as a few lines written down off the top of my head, and I started thinking about Josh and how much he means to me and the conversation we had last night and came up with this. He's an old friend who's moved on to bigger things. It's kind of long, but let me know what you think!

Have you ever noticed that God
Sends you the person you need to get you through each day?
To show you that, when everything goes wrong
It'll all eventually be okay?

That certain someone to reassure
To make you see that all is not lost.
A friend, a companion, a comrade in arms,
Someone to calm you when you don't dare count the cost.

Each day is an experience in trust
And I must renew my faith
For He has plans mightier than me
And I must put Him in first place.

He gives me friends to get me through,
To talk to, to read about, to write.
Instant messages from each blessed gift
Let me know I can't make it without His light.

Because, you see, Josh was online last night.
He’s in the Army, far away, been gone too long,
Only in Seattle, but that’s not close to Texas.
He's my friend, we share views, and he's strong.

We had a discussion about left vs. right
How they're taken for granted and he doesn't understand
The way people flaunt their freedom
Not stopping to think just how they got this free land.

People like him, who are brave, strong, and dedicated
Make me each day prouder to be an American.
He's living "every person's dream, getting shot at"
To keep me free. He's becoming a man.

He says he can't wait to grow up
That he's still so immature,
But, dear Josh, you'll get your chance.
Then you'll grow up too fast to measure.

When you leave around Christmas
And go to the sandbox, to that not so little conflict
You'll understand even more clearly the reality of your duties, and
Your life; the sacrifices might make you sick.

I'm so proud of you and your amazing accomplishments.
I miss you sleeping in the back of the band hall.
And I know responsibility will catch up even faster
As you grow up, go away, and get homesick but just can't call.

You'll go away then come home, but the cute, sweet, and awesome
Josh we all know and love will
Be buried under a new layer, a mask of
Experience, death, observations, and honed skills.

You are a soldier, the bravest of the brave.
Not one of those "fags who are scared of bullets,"
But a true man, willing to fight, and to die
For your country, your friends, and even those you don't get.

You serve, and you described it as your job,
But it's more than a job, it's a calling.
You know why you fight, and you know
That through it all, there will be no rest, no stalling.

Yes, there are those who take you for granted,
Who don't understand why you chose to fight
And one day, quite possibly to die
For the freedom you know is right.

But I promise you now, dear friend
That we will never forget that the choices
You've made to live and serve for us
Will last forever as we lift up our voices.

You gave me encouragement when it should've been
The other way around, you needed it more.
But never will I forget or let lay the words
That opened in my mind a door.

You said I'd be fine and I know you have faith
That all that you said would be true.
So I'll try my best for you every day
And make something of myself, that I could compare to you.

You're a hero already, just because you live
A life that few have the courage to attempt.
I love you for that and for being a friend. For talking
And understanding me, your "little sister", a nymph.

So thank you, Josh, for serving,
For earning the right for those of us who
Live that freedom and each day pray
For our dear brave soldiers like you.