Missing my Guys

I've had a very... interesting Spring Break. I've spent the week with my cousin in North Houston. I had originally planned on spending the week with my aunt and uncle a little farther north, but my cousin's oldest son is home from Japan. He's a Marine. His younger brother is a senior in high school. They're both really great kids, and I have enjoyed spending time with them and their many friends in the "frat house" that has been her home. There are always people around, always a party going on, and so many guys it's ridiculous. They're all babies, and one of them is the oldest boy's best friend, also a Marine home from Japan. Needless to say, I've been the babysitter/house mother at party central. I've spent several nights staying up with the guys just to make sure they're alright, that they get to bed safely, and that the house doesn't get torn up. This even included a trip to Denny's at 4 AM one morning. It's been a fun week, and they're all amazed that I can still have a good time even though I'm a middle school teacher. The Marine who is a friend of my cousin just left. He has to leave for Chicago in the morning for a funeral, so he went to his dad's house for the night. He moved in with my cousin a few months before he graduated high school, which was two years ago, so he's part of the family, but this week was the first time I'd met him. I've grown very attached to the whole crew, and I'm going to miss them all when I go back home tomorrow. I've had an awesome Spring Break, though. I never went through the party phase in school, so this has been a glimpse of what I missed in college. I'm glad I missed this when I was their age, but it's been a lot of fun this week.

I haven't seen or really spoken to Cory at all this week, which has been incredibly frustrating. He's convinced I'm so patient and that I'm difficult to anger, which is true for the most part. We had a discussion two weeks ago about my need for communication in this relationship, and now he's slacking. I don't know what's going on--if he's just busy or otherwise engaged or lost his phone, but either way I'm not impressed. I'm going to send him an email tonight and call him tomorrow, I think. Or vice versa. I don't suppose it really matters. All I know is that I'm pissed off and am tempted to either force his hand so he has to see me by either showing up at his door or calling an ultimatum, or just end it. If only he would talk to me this whole thing would be so much easier. Why does this crap happen to me? Maybe Mother's right and I only fall for the emotionally unavailable guys. Maybe I'm just overreacting. My thing is, I deserve better, right? I deserve to be a priority in somebody's life, right? Don't I????